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emotional maturity. has not entered my mind once today, after i sat, in what feels like a million years ago. i GOT to stay the night in Leadville last night and i GOT to climb Missouri Mountain, today. neither of those activities would have been possible if i was still using, i would not be able to afford a night in an AirBNB and i lacked the physical stamina to climb over 3000 feet in less than three miles. more importantly these words would have meant nothing to me:

Joel K.
IX (nine) years clean!
Jack W
XVI (sixteen) years clean!
Congrats my brothers on doing this gig Just for Today.

usually i would let this topic hang until my next cycle, especially after the day i had. i sincerely do not remember what, if anything i may have heard on the other side of this day, but coming back to this topic now, i sense a gnawing unease about whether or not i am really striving for any sort of maturity, let alone an emotional one. i do “know” these things:

• i am less apt to judge
• i am quicker to forgive
• i am much quicker to trust
• and i am more certain of who i am and where i may be going.

with that on the top of my mind, i think i will call it day and be back bright and early tomorrow morning to see what pops-up. 😉

∞ DT ∞