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of consistency in my life, my service commitments, and my relationships cannot be overstated. i can hear eyes rolling as one starts think: **here he goes again,** extolling the virtues of an daily program of active recovery, and of course i will not disappoint in that regard. 😏 i certainly can say that i was consistent in my active using days. i used every single day and did whatever i needed to do to facilitate using. many might say i was habituated to using, if they were of the notion that addiction is a behavioral problem or moral dilemma. i no longer argue that point, even after being clean for a minute and probably “un-habituated” to using, i need not play word or mind games with myself. for me, i am better off using, whether or not i am a “real” addict or not.
today i get to celebrate with a brother in recovery and a man who chooses to call me his sponsor:

Stan H.
Congrats on FIVE (V) years clean!
Keep coming back.

so back to the consistency issue. i have to admit that i only attend one meeting a week, but i do so nearly every week. after getting over my own bad self, i actually did some real service for my home group, instead of just saying i was going to do so. my source material was more about that notion, rather than the notion of the actions i need to consistently take to foster my recovery. what i heard as i listened to the void this morning, was a sense of purpose in healing my overuse injuries by modelling my commitment to my program of recovery. i was given exercises to do as homework from the physical therapist. the suggestion for each one is three sets of ten reps every day. spending the time every day to improve my physical self is no different than the time i take every day to improve my spiritual self, BUT, and yes it is a big one, unless i consistently do what is suggested i will get little or no benefit out of the program that will lead to my gaol of being 19,341 feet above sea level. the one thing i know for certain, is that my therapist will know if i am being honest in how diligent and consistent i am with doing my exercises. i may be sixty-six years old, but i am in very good shape for someone who has a sedentary lifestyle. it is my intention to get moving again and part of that is to take the suggestions and just do it.
right here and right now? time to get my one mile of walking done on the gray and foggy Thursday morning. i still have a few things to figure out about how to deal with my pain overnight, but for the most part, my physical pain is abating and i feel stronger that i have felt since the incident on Mt Sanitas. it is a good day to consistently apply the principles that have brought me this far and do whatever i need to do, to foster mt=y recovery in all its aspects, just for today.

∞ DT ∞