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humanity, and humility. owning that i am imperfect, allows me to feel human and know exactly what is and what is not my best stuff. today, as i decided to walk, rather than do a mixed bag of cardio, walking and climbing up imaginary mountains, i kept coming back to this particular trio, evaluating myself for the things i chided myself for, that are nothing more than being a far from perfect human being. the simple fact of the matter is, that i am much harder on myself, than i am on anyone else and my failure to meet my own expectations is ammo enough for a sound round of severe beating about my figurative head and shoulders. when i consider where i have been and where i happen to be these days, it is easy to get past what i am not and just be comfortable with what i am.
yesterday, a friend who is out and about trying to get their life together asked if it was okay if they gave my contact information as a reference. i told them i was okay with that BUT, i would not lie for them. they came back with did i not know that they had a great work ethic and were reliable as an employee. i said i never worked wit them, so i would not know. they said well you know some of the folks i used to work with, and i said, surprise, surprise, surprise, i never talked about you with them. i mean seriously, who the fVck do they think they are that i would actually waste my time and effort finding out how well they did their job? i wanted to say: fVck you, the world does not revolve around you and i really do not give a flying fVck about how well you worked, once upon a time. i let it go and got back to my work and later that day, they txtd me that they landed a job. i wonder just how long this will last as they are hardly the type to take any disrespect, imagined or real from anyone, for any length of time. i certainly hope things work out for them.
now? well now, it is time to let go of being a judge and return to the land of the living. my leg is stiff and sore after my workout this morning, but that is probably a good thing, as i will need to be able to walk five or six miles a day, in little over a month. my training regime needs to focus on moving and less on cardio, but i will check that notion with my physical therapist this afternoon. it is a great day to be moving forward physically, emotionally and spiritually in my life and letting go of what is not, is a great way to get that ball rolling, just for today.

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