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means we are better together! nothing to see here, move along, after all, what can one say when it comes to living a life that is connected to a fellowship of equals and like-minded people, such as myself. whether or not i like everyone i share my recovery with is far from relevant. what is relevant that IF they chose to ask for my help. i would certainly give it, with no expectation of payback nor return. as nice as it might be to put that sort of expectation on my peers, i get that it is neither fair or relevant. all actions have consequences and even if something i do or do not do, is not seen by anyone else, i still know what i did and the consequence just may be living with the understanding that i could have done better. on the flip side, the consequence is knowing that i did something for someone else and perhaps made their ;life a bit better in that instant.
i have to admit, i really hate going to the gym on Sundays, as the weekend warriors have parked the lot full and the little assholes are there attempting to take up far more space that is their due. it was a bit more crowded that i am used to and i was twice an asshole when i was marching backwards, as i ran into not one but two walkers, because i was not looking over my shoulder to ascertain whether or not there were slower walkers in my path. i apologized profusely and owned i was wrong, but i did not seem to get forgiveness nor absolution from either one. not that i needed any sort of response other than an acknowledgement that i did not hurt them, but i whined silently about not getting what i really wanted, forgiveness. it was what it was and it is time for me to get this posted and get ready to get out of the house for a bit of football and at least one good cigar. it is a good day to be clean and for those who celebrate the holidays, may all of you have a Merry Christmas.

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