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need to successfully meet any challenge, have been given to me from my predecessors in recovery and i am continually reminded to use them by my peers. i have to admit, though, i really hate when i hear others share about their recovery “toolbox,” and yet, here i am, going down that path. today, i had to dig deep and find a sh!t ton of acceptance and humility, i generally run the Bolder Boulder, but due to my right leg being injured as i was training for my trek to the top of Africa and re-injured on the descent from five thousand eight hundred and ninety-five meters above mean sea level, could only walk that 10K course. i got to the starting line so i could start with my wave, and proceeded to walk, rather than attempt to run. i am not used to getting passed up by everyone and time and again i wanted to berate myself or slink away and just not finish the course. i did get about 100 steps of jogging in, towards the end of the course, BUT and yes it is a big one, i DID NOT run through the pain, even though my ego kept saying to ignore it and run anyhow. what i “heard” is that i need to defer the gratification of breaking eighty minutes and listen to my body. in the end, my time was eighty-one minutes and change, so not all that shabby for a wounded weekend warrior. even better i did not make things worse so i may be able to start hiking as the snow comes off the peaks. i do have to say that is sucks to get dusted by ten year olds. 🤣 i guess it could be worse, i might have been running my best and still have got dusted by a ten year old.
with that challenge successfully faced and in my rear view mirror, not a whole lot more to do today, as i am REQUIRED to take the day off from work and not add extra hours over the course of the rest of this week. i may get a nap, i am definitely going to go celebrate my spouse's grandson's graduation, possibly do some step work with a sponsee and maybe, go enjoy a cigar. i kn0ow the fact that i can even consider running a 10K race or trekking to the top of Africa are the results of actually opening that toolbox and using the tools i find in there to continue my journey of becoming who i have always wanted to be, just for today.

∞ DT ∞