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against the same locked door, expecting to all of a sudden to yield, is not a very sane manner in which to live. i know, however, when i struggle to hold on to my beliefs, even when the evidence seems to be stacking up against them, that maybe, just maybe, it is time for me to open my mind a little bit. that may just be by listening, really listening, to one of my peers who i have judged to not have anything to offer to the great and powerful DON. i am quite apt to claim at any moment that i have a wonderfully open mind, but the sad truth is that i filled with biases, prejudices, judgements and tightly bound beliefs. it is a fact that despite all of that, i can and often do, actually open my mind to a new idea or three and allow the internal system i described above, to adjust to the newest set of facts. that being said, i still take all that i hear, read and am told with a huge grain of salt and seek evidence, to back up that claim. this whole “Church of Science” bullshit, created by conspiracy theorists, however, will never be seen by me to be more than futile attempt to keep the ignorant, ignorant and in their place.
the only problem with me rejecting someone else's beliefs is that i can often toss them into the bit bucket with their useless and unsupported theories and postulates. the POWER that fuels my recovery, has been presenting me the opportunity to remain respectful and connected to someone in my life that normally i would dismiss without a second thought. what i am learning is that what someone believes is not necessarily who they are, most of the time. my place is to allow them to believe what they will and still see then person inside who may or may not realize that they might be taken for a ride. perhaps their beliefs are valid and it is me that is being taken for a ride. there is always that possibility, it bis up to me to open my mind and rationally and critically evaluate the evidence.
when it comes to recovery, however, the evidence is overwhelming that it works for me. it is not the material gifts that make it so, but they do make my life comfortable. no it is the emotional stability and balance that i get bon a daily basis, when i stop banging my head and go with the flow. i do believe that the POWER that fuels my recovery, provides me with the opportunities r-to get what i need, each and every day. i believe it is my job to be present band aware enough of what is going on around me to see and take advantage of these opportunities. it is my job to let go of where that message comes from, even if it is the most despicable MAGAt in the world, after all, they just might have the one clue i need to solve the mystery of my life, just for today.

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