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was a grind that left more than a little bit jaded by the time i finally came around to recovery. as i sat this morning, on our last day in the tropics, what i heard was more along the lines of how did i get here, rather than WOW, look at where i am. i am amazed that and an addict, such as myself, could get clean, stay clean and yes, find a new manner in which to live. every day may not be an adventure, but it is certainly is way different than the routines and rhythms that ruled my life, way back when. as i held a Tamarind monkey in the palm of my hands yesterday, soothing its anxiety away, i realized that over the past year i have been places and done things i never ever dreamed was possible. there was a sense of awe, as that realization dawned upon me. those who have lived the life i lived in active addiction, very rarely get clean, much less stay clean. on this first day of 2025, i get a feeling of accomplishment as well as a sense of pride when i look at the life that i have build.
walking into 2025, i have hopes and dreams today. today, i am less cynical and certainly a whole lot less jaded. i have the desire to stay clean and most importantly continue to journey into becoming the sort of person i never thought i could become. as i am out of stuff to say, due to the distractions of my traveling companions, so i will post this, shower off and figure out what to eat. it is a good day to be clean.

∞ DT ∞