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daily prayer, regular meeting attendance, and choosing not to compromise spiritual principles for the easier way are acts of vigilance.
of course the list could go on and on, but my experience is that when i am presented with a seemingly endless lists of things i could or perhaps should do, i end-up with a glazed look and miss what is really important. what is important here is that if i want to keep my recovery fresh or perhaps make it even brand new, without using, the list presented is more than enough to get started.
i know that what i had when i came to this manner of living seemed enjoyable, and that i thought i was sane, whole human being, and perhaps in some sense i was. the truth is now i am saner and much more complete than i ever was. and on this first day of the new year, i ponder about what it took to get here, and how on earth i will be able to continue. truthfully, i am beginning to find all those things i MUST do to maintain my recovery a bit tedious these days. having a daily reading remind me that these small tasks are part of the vigilant stand i need to take to protect what i have been given, does nothing to make them feel any less boring and tiresome. what i take from the quiet contemplation of this reading is that for me it is these small and simple daily tasks that are part of my daily routine, that nurture my growth and keep the gifts of recovery coming. the choice comes down to whether i want to move forward or slide back into active addiction. and my choice for right now is that i will carry on with what i have been doing and continue to be grateful for the manner of living that i have chosen for the past three thousand three hundred and ninety nine days.
after all it really is not that hard to stay clean and enjoy recovery, and my misery can be quickly returned!

∞ DT ∞