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more than once: if i am looking for a burning bush, i am going to be disappointed. i have been also been told more than once that anything i ask for in prayer, will be granted. it has been my experience that the former is closer to my reality than the latter. in all my years of searching for a spiritual path, i have stumbled across both of those statements and tripped very hard. in the long run, neither ended up fitting in my spiritual world view. FAITH in the process of recovery and allowing the “whatever” to give me what i require to stay clean on a daily basis, sustains me to this day.
at my home group this morning i heard all kinds of stuff. some that fits well with how i see things, some that seemed a bit out of my bailiwick but certainly fit for the addict who was sharing. some of it, however, was certainly off the deep end, as when one of my peers shared that spiritual and emotional life and actions were subject to the laws of Newtonian physics. if i were to follow that trend of thought to the very end, if i wanted good outcomes, i would have to do bad things, after all every action has an opposite and equal reaction. in other words if i am disrespectful to others they will be respectful to me, which i have yet to see come to pass. i will not belabor the point, as to my mind it seems quite absurd and contrary to all that i have experienced in my recovery journey. whether that as said for shock value or not, i am quite certain that is not part of their spiritual practice, so i can pitch that notion, wholly and without reservation into the bit bucket.
moving into where i am right here and right now, i am on a rest day in my training schedule and for once i totally agree with my fitness tracker. i am wondering if my body and the algorithm are finally getting synced up. i can wonder all that i want to, i have a goal, and the next right thing, at least in the here and now, is to follow the advice i am given, to see if i can achieve that goal. i am using the FAITH that i had to place in the recovery process as a template for my FAITH is a training program and withholding judgement until i get to the race at the end of May. my spiritual progress has been amazing and when i consider the first time i heard either of the statements with which i started this exercise, i am amazed that i can look past them and be okay with where i am and for once where i may be going.

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