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once i am used to someone being there for me. i may run wild for a while and tell myself, **i will call my sponsor later,** and i end up in trouble, wondering where i went wrong.
however, this reading is one day too late, as i had found myself in a dilemma yesterday. i paused, considered my actions, and reactions, and then <GASP> i called my sponsor!
not that i expected him to make a decision, or provide any clarity, i have to do that stuff on my own, no, i called to talk about my feelings, my gut reactions and how to take care of myself, and still stay on the spiritual path. the conversation was quite illuminating, and for me it allowed me to get all of my inconvenient feelings out of the way so i could make a sound and considered decision.
my first and second thoughts were not that wrong, as they will probably be my final decision. that is not relevant, what is relevant is that i paused and considered before acting, and when i came to a fork in the road, where neither alternative looked especially attractive to me, i called and asked for guidance. it amazes me that i had that much clarity, and if one of the men i sponsored had done something similar, i would have said that it showed spiritual growth, which was what i was told last night.
so when i do what it is suggested, this sh!t really does work, and even though it is one of the international **call your sponsor** days, i think i will give mine a break, after all, he dealt with my particular lunacy last night. so off to the showers and into a moderately busy day of doing a whole lot of nothing, seasoned with a bit of napping and just chilling. even i need days like that.

∞ DT ∞