๐ patience is ๐
Posted: Wed, Dec 17, 2025 10:56:59 AM
more than just waiting for something to be done. some of the, probably mot of the time, being patient means working through something until a solution can be reached, whether it is in my recovery, my service efforts or in my life outside the fellowship. today i am patiently working my way through a bit of AI cosplay. leaving that aside for a minute, i really do need to be present for this little ditty and dive into the notion of being patient and committed to a process.
when i consider patience and commitment, i often stumble into places i do not want to be, as i have never been patient or committed, in active addiction or my early recovery. those terms scared the living shit out of me, as i never believed i could be anything more than i was when i walked into the rooms. as i began to to commit to a program of recovery i was far from patient and i had the desire for an instant transformation into a person similar to those who were in the rooms when i walked in. what i got, however, was incremental change that i did not recognize until way after the fact. what that taught me, was that as long as i stayed the course, i would change, even when it did not feel as if anything was happening. the same process was also true as i became less concerned about how my service efforts looked o others and started to see that i had ideas, that could help carry a message of recovery to the still suffering addict.
moving into my day, i am grateful today that every now and again i can choose patience over instant gratification and commitment over accepting that this is as good as i am going to get. change happens, even when i am not expecting it or cannot see it. by committing myself to the process of recovery, i can and will get to a place that is better than the one with which i walked into recovery, just for today.
when i consider patience and commitment, i often stumble into places i do not want to be, as i have never been patient or committed, in active addiction or my early recovery. those terms scared the living shit out of me, as i never believed i could be anything more than i was when i walked into the rooms. as i began to to commit to a program of recovery i was far from patient and i had the desire for an instant transformation into a person similar to those who were in the rooms when i walked in. what i got, however, was incremental change that i did not recognize until way after the fact. what that taught me, was that as long as i stayed the course, i would change, even when it did not feel as if anything was happening. the same process was also true as i became less concerned about how my service efforts looked o others and started to see that i had ideas, that could help carry a message of recovery to the still suffering addict.
moving into my day, i am grateful today that every now and again i can choose patience over instant gratification and commitment over accepting that this is as good as i am going to get. change happens, even when i am not expecting it or cannot see it. by committing myself to the process of recovery, i can and will get to a place that is better than the one with which i walked into recovery, just for today.
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