Some memes

awakenings have taken time to unfold and that seems especially true when it comes to my current resentment list. my seed this morning was all about being in harmony with group conscience is easier when i am actively in harmony with my true will for myself. of course, i was lazy and went with the flow, even though for me, this is not any sort of huge revelation. needless to say, what came bubbling up from the quiet had nothing at all to do with STEP 11 or Tradition 2, it was all about who should be on my list. and so it goes …
that is and of itself is a spiritual awakening and as i examined my life, i used the lens that one of my peers shared about on Thursday: who do i hate and why? when i started to consider that in the back of my mind, a power couple that were in my parent's lives for quite some time, a family member and a huge class of my fellow citizens popped off the stack in rapid s-succession. even worse a new resentment against my Mom suddenly materialized. WOW, i did not realize how much of that crap was still floating around inside of me! with those few new additions, i feel almost ready to roll. i am not sure which may come first this afternoon, a nap or a list, but i have a feeling both are on my agenda.
it is time to roll off off this and get on with my afternoon. i am grateful that i can allow myself the freedom to experience a spiritual awakening, even when i do not think i am in the process of having one. my life could be better, but at least i am willing to take the action to make my spiritual and emotional self better and more fit to be a part of the human condition.

∞ DT ∞