Some memes

receive the message of HOPE from whoever offers it and to take responsibility for carrying it to whoever needs it, is certainly a good reminder on this day, Sunday, when fantasy and real NFL Football take over all my bandwidth. i have to wonder though, when does accommodation and welcome become enabling. more on that in a minute. my source reading was one of those readings i place into the Kum-By-Yah category. kind of a big DUH and nothing to see here, move along. i get that HOPE is what our fellowship offers, specifically the HOPE of life after the obsessive and compulsive use of drugs and behaviors. that freedom from active addiction can provide that HOPE, is what i need to be all about when i carry the message. what that does not mean, is that i plaster over the ugly bits and only share the “good” stuff. i could not clean and stay clean on bumper stickers and slogans, so i do not expect anyone else to do so. i know many of my peers share the happy, joyous and free part of their lives, as if that is the HOPE of the program. the hill i will die on, is that sharing HOW i stay clean, when shit comes barrelling down upon me, is more hopeful. be that as it may, latching on to a bumper sticker or slogan, may just what some addict needs to stay clean today, and i will not disabuse them of that notion.
this morning i am dealing with an addict who does not seem, in my estimation, not willing to take responsibility for his life. he want my time and for the first time, actually requested in the time frame i asked for. when i sent him an unambiguous time suggestion, he asked me to translate it into his time zone,as he is challenged by time management. i responded that was for me and adjusting it to his time zone was on him and well within his abilities. he apologized saying if i felt the request was inappropriate he was sorry. i wanted to say, you are over forty years old, perhaps it is time to grow the fuck up. trusting my better judgement, i did not respond and kept that little jewel to myself. i cannot change him. i will not enable him by taking responsibility for what he is capable of doing. i will give him the benefit of the doubt and do my best to see him as human and doing the best he can, with what he thinks he has. of course football is taking over my mind, so it is time to bid adieu and get moving along. it is a good day to realize that sometime, doing nothing but being a sports fan is as important as following my spiritual muse.

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