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Sat, Sep 25, 2004 04:07:55 PM


two days
posted: Sat, Sep 25, 2004 04:07:55 PM

 

off the grid and i am finally connected again.
you know i did not miss it ubtil late this afternoon when i just had to get a room with High Speed Internet Access in Cortez, CO
... so it goes
i am exhuasted and filled with joy because i have escaped the city for a bit and have been places and done things that were never possible for me before. when i was using the last thing in the world i would do on vacation would be to climb up and down ladders on the side of cliffs to look at the remenants of a people who left their homes 700 years ago. i may have been interested in drive by tourism but to climb and hike and explore would be the last of my desires.
okay enough about my fun and on to this morning's reading which if i recall was about feeling our defects as a result of working a 4th Step. i did not die from any of my 4th Steps and was motivated to move on. therfe are still many character defects left to be removed in me, but that is beyond my power, so just for today, i will feel what i am feeling (tired, sore and hungry) and let GOD take care of the rest
-- DT --

 

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∞ i have never died from a feeling ∞ 381 words ➥ Sunday, September 25, 2005 by: donnot
∞ it is not the awareness of my defects that causes the most agony -- it is the defects themselves ∞ 335 words ➥ Monday, September 25, 2006 by: donnot
∞ refusing to acknowledge the source of my anguish does not make it go away ∞ 578 words ➥ Tuesday, September 25, 2007 by: donnot
… if i hurt from the pain of my defects, i can remind myself of … 483 words ➥ Thursday, September 25, 2008 by: donnot
ξ when i was using, all i felt was the drugs ξ 626 words ➥ Friday, September 25, 2009 by: donnot
∧ i may fear that being in touch with my feelings will trigger … 467 words ➥ Saturday, September 25, 2010 by: donnot
≤  THE POWER THAT FUELS MY RECOVERY will care for me ≥ 479 words ➥ Sunday, September 25, 2011 by: donnot
♦ i no longer NEED to be afraid of my feelings ♦ 433 words ➥ Tuesday, September 25, 2012 by: donnot
∗ if i hurt from the pain of my defects, ∗ 474 words ➥ Wednesday, September 25, 2013 by: donnot
β  i can remind myself of the nightmare of addiction, β  739 words ➥ Thursday, September 25, 2014 by: donnot
∩ fearing my feelings ∪ 438 words ➥ Friday, September 25, 2015 by: donnot
🌀 an overwhelming 🌀 554 words ➥ Sunday, September 25, 2016 by: donnot
🎲 denial protects 🎱 705 words ➥ Monday, September 25, 2017 by: donnot
🤕 i am painfully 🤯 506 words ➥ Tuesday, September 25, 2018 by: donnot
🙈 refusing to acknowledge 🙉 582 words ➥ Wednesday, September 25, 2019 by: donnot
💤 the nightmare 💤 492 words ➥ Friday, September 25, 2020 by: donnot
🎭 the 4TH step 🎭 362 words ➥ Saturday, September 25, 2021 by: donnot
🤐 i will  🤫 529 words ➥ Sunday, September 25, 2022 by: donnot
🌤 honesty 🌥 349 words ➥ Monday, September 25, 2023 by: donnot
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯

THE TAO TEH KING, OR THE TAO AND ITS CHARACTERISTICS
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge

Book 2

2) Thus it is that firmness and strength are the concomitants of death;
softness and weakness, the concomitants of life.