โ when i used, i dreamed of the day when i would be clean. โ
Posted: Thu, Jul 19, 2007 11:09:34 AM
that day has come. i can use this day to make my dreams come true.
today however does not feel like a day when my dreams can come true. as a matter of fact today feels like one of those days when i just want to run and hide my head under my pillow, shut-off my cell phone and disappear from the real world forever.
but you may ask why oh why such an extreme reaction to a bit of stress. well as an addict who does not handle the unplanned very well, it has been a very topsy-turvy day., fires, deadlines, and everyone needing a piece of me has me on the run.
so time to breathe, relax and walk the dog.
yes i am living some old dreams, and i guess i was unprepared for what might occur as i got them fulfilled. well i knew what would happen, i just chose to believe that i could handle everything as it came along. in fact, i cannot even write this missive to cyberspace without taking a phone call
ARGHHHHH!
anyhow, i still need to walk the dog, and i am leaving my phone behind.
perhaps i will be able to look at my dreams in detail after a refreshing stroll through the subdivision or maybe not.
anyhow thanks for letting me vent.
today however does not feel like a day when my dreams can come true. as a matter of fact today feels like one of those days when i just want to run and hide my head under my pillow, shut-off my cell phone and disappear from the real world forever.
but you may ask why oh why such an extreme reaction to a bit of stress. well as an addict who does not handle the unplanned very well, it has been a very topsy-turvy day., fires, deadlines, and everyone needing a piece of me has me on the run.
so time to breathe, relax and walk the dog.
yes i am living some old dreams, and i guess i was unprepared for what might occur as i got them fulfilled. well i knew what would happen, i just chose to believe that i could handle everything as it came along. in fact, i cannot even write this missive to cyberspace without taking a phone call
ARGHHHHH!
anyhow, i still need to walk the dog, and i am leaving my phone behind.
perhaps i will be able to look at my dreams in detail after a refreshing stroll through the subdivision or maybe not.
anyhow thanks for letting me vent.
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