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on other humans to meet my needs, but dependence on humans is risky at best, they may fall short of perfection. it is the same speech i give the guys who choose to let me sponsor them. moving from being dependent on yourself to becoming dependent upon a POWER GREATER THAN ME, was one of the first things i had to do. being more than a little obstinate, there was an intermediate step for me. i had to grow a bit of dependence on my sponsor. i soon learned that although my sponsor is a good person, he too has his good and bad times, and although i could rely on him to be available most of the time, he did have his down times, like all human beings. so for me, i had to learn on how to depend on the fellowship. that collection of human beings, i quickly found, was more reliable that any of its parts. and although it is comprised of imperfect human beings, that collective was much closer to the ideal of my nascent HIGHER POWER concept. that dependence has yet top fail me, and what was once just a place for me to socialize has become an integral part of my HIGHER POWER concept. those silly clichés about getting and using a phone list have saved my bacon more than once. a quick puke at a meeting about something that is troubling or puzzling to me, has brought suggestions that were beyond my ken at that moment. the round of hugs before and after meetings has ripped me from the grip of my self-imposed isolation. and the tentetavie questions from the men who choose to allow my to sponsor them, have forced me to open my mind to some new ways at looking at things. the list could go on and on, and probably would if i had no responsibilities to meet today. yes i am lest self-dependent, and yes i am grateful for the gift i got over the past two days. no silly not my circular glass cutter or gold chain, but the chance to be a part of a family and a partcipant in the celbration of the season. so i will just close with this thought, just for today i will allow my dependence on GOD to grow as much as it needs to grow!
BTW: Happy Fifth Anniversary, Mike C

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