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as it may seem to to rely on my peers, my friends or my sponsor to provide for me needs, i know that is a trap to avoid at all costs. across my recovery journey i have witnessed the results of what happens to my peers when they place their FAITH in people, rather than the fellowship or a HIGHER POWER. the lucky ones survived with their recovery intact, the others? well i still wonder how they are doing. i know that is i choose to, i can find fatal flaws in every single human being and no matter good their intentions may be, in the long run, relying on them for the source of the power i need to stay clean today, is setting myself and them up for a major fail. that does not mean i let go of those i do have in my recovery, even if the nature of our relationship changes over time.

Mike C
Twenty years (XX) clean!
Congrats my friend.

one of the things that suck in my life today, is no paid time off. everyone i work with is on is three day weekend, and i could take the day off, but then i would have to work ten hour days the rest of the week or accept a paycheck that is one day short of what i have come to rely upon. my choice? put in some hours and not whine about it, too much. 🤣 after sleeping in an extra hour this morning, i have yet to get motivated to do much of anything. what i see in the world around me, is the result of not doing what i need to do for my physical, emotional, mental and spiritual health. no matter how much FAITH i have in the program of recovery or the POWER that fuels my recovery, if i choose to allow myself to slide into doing nothing to better myself, i may never come back. not that i am in any sort of danger, but i do need to remind myself that inertia is real and i am the object that requires acting upon to keep moving in a direction that is acceptable to me, just for today.

∞ DT ∞