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sorry about the blinking message, i know friends do not let friends use <blink>, but i had an irresistible impulse to do something insane on friday and that was the least damaging thing i could do.
it has been a very busy two days for me and i have drifted away from a few of the things that keep me clean, so today i return to my program with a renewed vigor.
the JFT reading this morning was about transferring the unhealthy dependence i had on using to a healthy dependence on a POWER greater than myself. it also spoke of an unhealthy transference to human beings.
although i love my sponsor, and my friends dearly and have come to depend on them for guidance, companionship, i cannot allow myself to depend on them for those things that are beyond human abilities. among those skills humans lack, are the power to keep me clean, the power to care for my ENTIRE life and will and the power to remove my character defects and shortcomings.
coming to TRUST humans to help me and coming to TRUST GOD to provide for me all those things that are beyond the ability of human beings was an important step in my recovery process. this separation, although still not finished, will allow me to continue to recover -- just for today.
∞∞ DT ∞∞