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i have begun learning how to rely on the care of a HIGHER POWER and to trust the inner direction that POWER provides me. so as i recover, that inner voice is becoming more reliable? well in my experience it seems to be. it is quite true, that as a class, addicts in recover or not are not the best decision makers,. i agree wholeheartedly, based on my own experience with my decision-making process. i have also discovered, that under the guidance of a sponsor, in concert with the POWER from which my ability to stay clean comes from, i have learned how to make better decisions, more often than not. the result of this learning process, is that across time, my inner voice, and my intuition become more reliable and trustworthy, the trick is to reconcile what i think the inner self is telling me, to the reality around me. as i have yet to get an e-mail from GOD, saying this is how i want you to decide this particular issue. no my clues and cues come from the external events that occur daily. fitting all that information together with what my intuition and inner voice are telling me, is how i need to arrive at a decision. i have come to trust the ensemble manner, and the amazing thing is, that gathering a consensus from a variety of sources, doe not make the process any longer or more painful, in fact things seem to resolve within my life, just when they need to, whether i want them to or not.
so anyhow, what does any of this have to do with learning to be guided by a HIGHER POWER? well it is my belief, that POWER provide my inner voice with what it needs to make decisions, most of the time, it is my self-will, that decides to go against what i am being told, and not some inherent flaw within me.
so anyhow, i need to get moving out into the snow and cold and find some time to hide away from the world, for at least a couple of hours. it is a good day to recover!

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