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not mine.
okay, seriously this is getting a bit, old, once more into a step that i cannot currently complete, no matter how willing. the message i am choosing to take away from this, is that familiar refrain of: “Not YET!” that start and the frustration i feel is a perfect example of what happens during the clash of the wills, and right now, i am worn out being frustrated, so i think i will just let it go.
this is one of those little saying that often irks, however, as it feels like i am being oppressed and subjugated by that will and i can still hear those old farts in that other fellowship going on and on with their “thees, thys and thines.” even in all the news, i am struck by how many seem to throw their hands in the air, declare there is nothing to do but pray for a solution. well all their prayers and thoughts are doing very little to defuse an increasingly hostile society, where pulling out an automatic weapon and opening fire in a crowded room, feels like the SOLUTION to the problem. in fact, the very same folks who are screaming for prayers are the ones that are ratcheting up the hostility and polarizing speech, that creates the very situations they are praying to be resolved. i am tired of the most intolerant in society, screaming the loudest that something, anything must be done and that includes the control freaks on the right as well as on the left. the fact is, that as societal norms move further and further away from the classic definitions of liberal and conservative, both side have been ratcheting up the rhetoric and saying it is okay to advocate for very violent and hateful solutions.i, however, have very little power to influence the dweebs and tools who are filling the media with their hate speech and divisive views, but what i can do is allow myself to feel the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery, and do the next right thing. i am certainly glad that mass-murder, violent overthrow of the ruling classes or forcefully getting someone to conform to my will, is not part of what i feel the next right thing to do, is today. Presbyterian, Muslim, Buddhist or Jewish, in the long run, it is not GOD who is imposing this violent reaction to the world around us, of that i am pretty certain, and yet each every day, adherents to those spiritual paths scream for the blood of their enemies and exercise their free will to spill it.
i have, however, went off on a tangent. what started out as a blog about how i feel the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery and allow myself to act accordingly, went down a path of tirade of what i see as the greatest evil society is facing today, namely the unchecked hostility of “my God is more powerful than yours!” i used to say that in jest, and now that notion is abhorrent to me. what i am feeling this morning is a bit of gratitude because i am letting go of the “when” will i get to and accept that when will be at the exact right time, all i have to do is wait for it, DAMMIT!
time to go make the donuts. perhaps as the day progresses i too can do my part to remove just a bit of the polarizing hostility that permeate my world these days.

∞ DT ∞