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my part in this partnership is to do the very best i can each day. so as i sit here this morning, struggling against a power that appears greater than me, it is good to stop and think and brain dump about this amazing partnership that has developed in my life with a POWER that is beyond the mundane. that POWER that provides for me needs and much, much more. the thing i a feel the most grateful about in this relationship, is that this POWER has removed the desire to use from me. okay, i could go on and on about gratitude, and it would be true, but something else is playing out in my head this morning. my head and my heart are telling me that there is still more than another act in the relationship saga that has been unfolding since september. be that as it may, i have acknowledged the feeling. and i am not going to obsess or dwell on the matter any further. i will let whatever events that will transpire, if any, happen.
what does that have to do with being a partner with the divine? well for me, it means that i can be present for my feelings, and my desires. i can acknowledge them and i can move forward into my day. that for me is doing my best to live up to my end of the partnership. of course there is always the option of staying in bed, pulling the covers over my head and pretending that the world does not exist, or else, even better that my senior partner will take care of me, all i have to do is ask, no other effort is required. yes, those are two choice i can make, and on the other end of the spectrum i can worry, obsess and generally manipulate the people and events in my life, doing my best to influence the outcome of the day. and although it may feel like i am actually accomplishing something, and i am putting a great deal of effort into that, in the long and short run, i end up exhausted and no closer to my true goal that when i started, and spent.
so back to the reading. it suggests a middle path, i do my best, take care of what i can take care of and allow things to happen as they will. in the long run, i will get better, the world will be what it will be, and i will get to make the choice of being an active participant in my life again tomorrow. speaking of which, time to run, so i will sign-off saying i know who and what i am today, and am grateful i can be more tomorrow.

∞ DT ∞