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in the care of a HIGHER POWER care is more than sufficient to carry me through today. my part is to do the best i can to do the footwork of recovery. i am really hooked on the whole partnership with a HIGHER POWER notion, and even though i did not **get it** for quite some time in my recovery, once i finally heard what it was about i latched on to it and have never regretted that decision since.
so i know i have talked about the nature of the partnership relationship, who has the power and so on. i probably have written about how i came to this place in my relationship with a POWER greater than myself. i may have even expressed some gratitude for what i felt and how i walked through each day secure in this relationship. so all of that while interesting is not what i am going to share about this morning. what i heard and what i felt was a certainty that no matter what happens, i can stay clean and be okay. that no matter what happens i can continue my journey towards becoming the man i have always wanted to be. that no matter what happens i will be given what i NEED to get through each and every day. HOWEVER, i must do what is in front of me get it. money is not going to fall from the sky and land in my backyard. people will choose not to listen when i offer suggestions. i will not suddenly turn twenty again and most importantly i am not going to use in my sleep. all of those things will possibly desirable are not highly probable and need not be. i can have them fulfilled by doing my part to actively participate in my life and my recovery. money to meet my needs? do the work that is in front of me. staying mentally and physically fit? do the exercise suggested by my doctors, friends and medical practitioners. not using, just for today? live the steps and be present for what is going on inside and around me, quite simple, but one of the hardest tasks of that entire list. who demands this sort of action? well it certainly is not the POWER that is the senior partner. it is me, the junior partner that demands this action. i understand that staying clean and having the power not to use, requires that i, human as i am, do the footwork necessary to foster this relationship and be ready to accept the power when it is given to me from the POWER that keeps me clean. i am the one that fosters this relationship, and if i choose to let it wither and die on the vine, it will be because of my action, conscious, unconscious or whatever. so speaking of action, the time has come to get off my seat and move through the streets. after all, i choose to be healthier toady and accept the power to make it so.

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