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i surrendered and made way for that Power to begin the process of filling our inner void. so this is one of my favorite readings, even though i truly find that attaching any value judgment on any reading in the fellowship that has given me this new manner of living. be that as it may, that is a topic that i can get on a soapbox about and never get back to the topic at hand -- allowing myself to be filled with the LOVE of a POWER GREATER than me, and then learning how to give that love away.
if one would have asked, way back in those bleak days of my early actual recovery, i would have said this whole void inside gig was a trip that the ignorant, superstitious, peasants that were in the program cooked up to keep anyone from questioning the premise of whether or not this was a spiritual or mundane manifestation. well these days i is one of those -- yes you read that correctly, i am one of those superstitious, ignorant peasants that i looked down upon way back when, i wholeheartedly accept that this is a spiritual problem, that my addiction need to be treated on a physical, emotional and a spiritual level, and that without outside intervention i am doomed to the inertia of getting and finding the ways and means to use more.
i have seen the void, and i have felt the POWER that is filling it day by day, that is when i surrender and allow that to happen.
so enough preaching to the choir. i am a bit frustrated because my computer is acting up and it has been almost a year since my last OS reload. i have a few tricks up my sleeve and will give them a spin. i am also a bit disappointed that the meeting i went to last night seems to be fading out of existence, i am going to commit to my support for the next few weeks to see if i can help it start to grow again. finally, today i get to try and run again, albeit with the dawg and not very quickly. so lots going on and the day is moving forward whether or not i am, so it is off to hit the streets and see if i can get back into the rhythm of my day.

∞ DT ∞