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food, enough sex, or enough money, i will be satisfied and everything will be alright.
first off, to all my friends and peers: i have been way off the grid for the past week and did not learn about what was happening here at home until i arrived at the airport yesterday morning. i sincerely hope that you are all safe and dry, as it appears that round 97 of the unending rains, is starting again already. please let me know, if you need anything at all, and i will do what i can to help.
to all you sent me clean date greetings, thank you for acknowledging the my milestone of sixteen years clean! it certainly was strange not to be here for my celebration and i will be picking up my key-tag at the Tuesday night meeting here in Longmont, providing that location is still available for our weekly meeting, if not? well Wednesday will have to do.
so now that i am back on the grid, as it were, i can say i was certainly surprised to wind up in the middle of the national news. flooding in Longmont? well i guess every one hundred or even five hundred years it is to be expected.
alright on to bidness. for the past week, i certainly have let my program of active recovery slip. not a meeting and as the week went on, i found myself drifting further and further away from my recovery routine. although i came back clean, i certainly did not come back very serene. after a very frustrating travel day yesterday, i am finally getting my feet on the ground and starting to move forward with what i NEED to do, including, a return to my daily routine. there were times over the course of the last week, when i though maybe sampling some flavored tequila might be a good idea, after all, i could always spit it out and be good, keep my clean date and…
in fact more than once, i begin to think that i was one of the other 85% and could enjoy my Mexican vacation, just like those others do. a drink here and there, would not kill me. they treated me like i was one of those and as i sit here and go over my behaviors for the past week, i certainly acted like that was who i was. today i am certain, i am not. as i get ready to shower off and head into town to take care of what was not done in my absence i can see that boy do i have a way to go. just considering that i could get enough of anything, even just the taste of something exotic and different is certainly a sign that i have not after 16 years joined that other 85%!
so yes i am back, whether or not i am working from home the next few days has yet to be decided, but i do know that i have stuff to accomplish as this cloudy and ominously rainy day winds on. it is a good day to be clean, and home with my friend, family and peers in Colorado, no matter how et it happens to be.

∞ DT ∞