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this morning i am so grateful for having some recovery and contact with a loving and kind Higher Power of my own understanding. i have heard over and over again that

we keep what we have by giving it away

to the point that sometimes i cringe when i hear that platitude. today however i love the line

i will celebrate my connection with the GOD of my understanding by giving away what was so freely shared with me

i have been struggling with a decision to give away something that i was born with, and finally made the decision yesterday to see if i am acceptable to go through the process. i talked with my family, my sponsees and others in recovery and still agonized over the decision. my greatest FEAR was what if they say YES and i lack the courage and conviction to proceed. well, i finally took the decision out of my hands and off my mind. now the outcome is up to others and GOD. i never thought that giving it away would ever apply to a body part. my assumption was that the stuff i had to give away was spiritual. well the lesson i have learned is, regardless of my original motives, there are many things that the next right thing to do is to just do it and leave the outcome to GOD. today my spirit is light and i am filled with a gratitude that has been noticeably lacking over the past few days. does this mean that somehow i have achieved a god-like state. not hardly! what it means is today i can accept myself as i am today, and share freely with everyone in my life those gifts that i treasure most, even those that fall outside the spiritual principles of this program.
-- DT --