๐ fullness of recovery ๐
Posted: Tue, Sep 15, 2020 01:01:38 PM
this is certainly a weird day, after being up to four-fifteen AM this morning, i got a walk with the dawg, had to deal with a client having issues and am now on a call listening to a lawyer tell the HOA that we may not get the legal fees back from a recalcitrant homeowner. i am not in a **kind and loving** place this morning and ready to pound someone into dust. a quick breath, a quieting of my mind and i may be in a better place.
thinking about how this day has gone and how unbalanced i feel emotionally, mentally and certainly spiritually, i know that i as i move through this day, i will need to be cautious about how i walk my talk today. my temper will be short, i will tend toward aggressive rather than assertive. since i hate having to make the corrections required by my daily TENTH STEP, taking a breath and attempting to return to a place of balance will be need to be my first “thought” throughout my day.
i want to say how GOD has filled me to the brim with love and care. the fact of the matter is, i may be more loving and caring than i ever was, BUT i am far from being beatified as a recovery “saint.”
<insert the progress not perfection bromide here>
after a trip to the mailbox and thinking about what did not get done last night, i realized that i could not walk away from that clean-up and do a little workout, because my work was completed. whine, b*tch and moan, seems to be my MO this morning, so i think the spiritual thing to do, is post this and walk away, just for today.
thinking about how this day has gone and how unbalanced i feel emotionally, mentally and certainly spiritually, i know that i as i move through this day, i will need to be cautious about how i walk my talk today. my temper will be short, i will tend toward aggressive rather than assertive. since i hate having to make the corrections required by my daily TENTH STEP, taking a breath and attempting to return to a place of balance will be need to be my first “thought” throughout my day.
i want to say how GOD has filled me to the brim with love and care. the fact of the matter is, i may be more loving and caring than i ever was, BUT i am far from being beatified as a recovery “saint.”
<insert the progress not perfection bromide here>
after a trip to the mailbox and thinking about what did not get done last night, i realized that i could not walk away from that clean-up and do a little workout, because my work was completed. whine, b*tch and moan, seems to be my MO this morning, so i think the spiritual thing to do, is post this and walk away, just for today.
∞ DT ∞