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i no longer need to create chaos, my recovery provides me with countless opportunities for excitement and drama. do i really have enough drama in my life? well from the outside looking in, one may think that i live in a drama free zone, and one would not be far off the mark. yes, i have problems of all sorts, that is just part of this being human gig. yes, i can make those problems larger and more ominous, if i allow myself to get carried away with obsession about them. quite honestly, the past twenty-four hours have been more drama-filled than i am accustomed to, as a result i have far more emotional investment than is probably healthy for me. stress sucks, and creating more stress by allowing myself to be swept away in the current of magnifying my problems sucks even more.
the reading this morning, simply suggests that i live the second and third step. it is insane to go on and on about stuff that is beyond my control. the trick for me, is to recognize that insanity, even if i am way into obsession, and then to use a third step decision to turn it over into the care of a HIGHER POWER. sounds quite simple, n’est-ce pas! simple as it may be, the devil comes when i try and implement such a course of action, after all i am different, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH.
so where does that leave me today? well first off, it is time to take the dawg out for a trot around the neighborhood, then work on moving files and creating an account for one of my clients on their new web host, update another client’s web page, and create a new web site for a new client. a bit of service, a call to my sponsor, maybe a few hours in the cigar shop may also be part of the plan today, oh yeah and update IP information for another client. looks like to me i have a full day, i can stress over getting everything done, or i can simply allow myself to go with the flow and see what i can accomplish as the day goes on. i choose living steps two and three and allowing myself to be present in the here and now. that way i can conquer the molehills and not expand them into mountains. so on that note i think i will move on to the next task of this day.

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