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neither are insurmountable today, but i can turn even the simplest of problems into chaos and drama. the converse is also true in my life i can minimize my mountains and hope that they go away. i am more apt to do the former, as i have learned across the course of my recovery that major problems seldom resolve without a bit of foot work.
on that note, i sit here thinking what has transpired since i got rolling this morning, the weather report is now predicting more snow than before and i have a journey up to Estes Park this evening for an outside service commitment. i got an offline message from a friend that he needed to talk. and there was a response to my FEAR blog this morning from another friend who is having some real problems in her life, but is getting by. in less than ninety minutes from freeing myself from the grasp of Morpheus i am pushing the envelope of making things more complicated than they need to be. my trip to Estes will take longer and be slower than i originally planned and i will have to make accommodations to the weather. i called my friend and asked him to call back when he got the chance and i read the HOPE that was in anonymouse‘s reply. so really there is currently not a mountain in sight. not that everything in my life is smooth sailing.
i have to deal with my feelings about moving in with the woman i love and there is a bunch of fear around that. it has been quite a while since i shared a residence with someone i was romantically involved with. i wonder if i will be able to find the ‘space’ i need. i wonder if we will be compatible living partners. i wonder if she will run out the relationship screaming and pulling out her hair after a few days with me and my dog. i wonder if i will come to find myself full of resentment and anger towards her over the silly little adjustments to my lifestyle that i will need to make. and on and on.... really kind of silly since we have been working on this relationship as equal partners since our first date. but nevertheless i can expand and complicate this event beyond what it is with just a moment‘s thought. and that brings me back to the reading -- take a look at the reality of the situation. i have the tools in my life and have done the foot work to become more than in ever was, so yes there will be a few molehills in this move but not the mountains i can easily project. what will be, will be and all i have to do is use a few spiritual principles today and let it take its proper perspective, which at least for today -- look at a few houses, make a few calls and let things be as they will. after all i do have a force in my life that will guide me to the solutions i need today and that force is the creative, collective consciousness of the fellowship that gave me this new life. and with that i can face anything that comes my way, mountains or mole hills, today!
∞ DT ∞