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i mean WTF is this supposed to mean, i asked myself after i read the headline of my source material. even as i started down the path of writing what was on my mind, i had to return to the source to see where i was going, because i had no idea from whence i came. after a quick read, i understand what it the idea behind the reading was and when i considered what i felt this more as i sat, i get what it is i can offer from my creative side.
even though i have a very rich ability to daydream all sorts of fantastical situations, i never considered myself a creative person. i am a hack developer, a mediocre clarinet player, have no ability to draw or paint and am not mechanical or a builder of anything of note. i do have a way with words and i guess how i share with my sponsees, in my service work and in this little exercise. i am not defined, however, by what i am not and even if all of those things i listed are quite true, i am more than all of that. it is no wonder i was confused as i dove into this reading this morning.
after some exercise and a very chilly walk with the dawg, i am better prepared to see what creativity i can contribute. last night in my TENTH STEP, i asked for the ability to give all the men i sponsor, exactly what they need, even if i vehemently disagree with their politics. i have already crossed over the bridge with the DRT sponsee and speaking with him, i understand what his plan happens to be, even if it is not what his medical professional is advising. i also told him to choose a clean date, i suggested the day after he gets off his medication, but i would support whatever decision he made. i also shared how my clean date is actually the last day i used and not my first day clean. if my sponsor, way back when, could give me the grace to choose, i can do so as well. perhaps that is the direction my creativity is going, finding the ways and means to accommodate without having to compromise my values.
not a whole lot more going on, my chores are almost done, my steps are complete for the day, i have some food in my belly and i am ready for some football. once upon a time, i would have fumed and fretted about how i had no creativity. today, i can leave what i do not have, behind and look to where my talents do lie and do take me. certainly a batter way to traverse this day, just for today.

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