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well, i gave it a try, a few minutes on the elliptical, was enough to totally wind me, so one more day of living with a cold, and NOT getting out for a workout. this cold really sucks, and even though the symptoms are abating, i am not healing as fast as i desire! in the spirit of the reading this morning, i could and still may come to believe that this will never pass, and i am doomed to sinking back into the physical unfitness level i once was so comfortable in. magnifying what is a minor inconvenience into a self-defeating prophecy, HMMMM, not me! this feeling of doom and gloom. is part of the whole addict trip. it probably is p[art of the human condition, one that is shared nearly universally across the planet, but one that is warped into something unhealthy and nearly unrecognizable from the other 90 percent of the human race. of course, i am powerless about the progression of this rhinovirus. of course, i hate not having control. and of course i instantly spring to the worst case scenario and want to accept it it as reality.
extreme, yes. necessary, not by a long shot. i can most certainly do as suggested by the reading, and let go of my problems, and surrender them into the care of the POWER that fuels my recovery. i am not certain that praying to have my cold removed will do anything to speed-up the process, but what i can pray for is the ability to accept that this too shall pass, if i do the footwork, eat right, rest right, and give my physical body the tools it needs to expel this viral invader from my body. that is correct pray for the ability to let go and allow events to transpire as they will. allowing myself to be miserable because i have a cold, is certainly a task i can continue to spend my time and energy on. i choose a different path today. i did my test, i am still too sick to workout, so i can accept that and move on, like the millions of addicts i share this program of recovery with, worldwide.
i am no different, as i was so poignantly reminded of last night at a meeting. more than one person shared stuff i was feeling and thinking last night. reading my mail, or plagiarizing my feelings or whatever, it was amazing. every time i was going to open my mouth and say something BOOM someone else said the exact same thing. which is certainly proof enough for me, that i am in the right place. so my task for today is to let go and let the POWER that fuels my recovery do what i need to have IT do. i will work with my incarcerated sponsees, do a couple of meetings and rest confident in the comfort of the POWER that furls my recovery. if i seek a solution the through that POWER, the answers will be revealed, so seek i shall.

∞ DT ∞