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trust in a loving HIGHER POWER of my understanding will put most of my problems in their proper perspective. i no longer need to create chaos to feel excited about my life.
you know a bit of chaos to spice up my life for myself and those around me!
anyhow what the reading really talked to me about was exploding minor setbacks into issues that will make using an attractive alternative. the biggest irony of this reading was i just finished writing a bit about how my trust and faith in the divine has changed over the course of my recovery as part of my fourth step. for me, the part of letting go, doing the footwork and trusting that the results will be what i NEED, is an idea who’s time has come. the best part of this idea id that it is the easier, softer way. true worrying about tiny little problems and spinning them over and over again in my head does take my mind off the real issues i need to face, like how to stay clean today and not use no matter what. or stuff like how to become a better partner in my relationships, or how to accept myself just as i am, or how carry the message to the still suffering addict.
there are days when i want and strive to create chaos, just because i can. and then there are days when i can have a bit of serenity and surrender my life and will into the care of my HIGHER POWER and trust that the results will be what i really want. and you know what, today is such a day, so time to go practice a bit of responsibility and dio what i am being paid to do!

∞ DT ∞