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problems? well, one might consider being unemployed one of those, and i do. i am stressed out and spend my days vacillating between being angry at all the recruiter calls and being grateful that they are actually calling. what i am not doing, is running away and dropping into some fantasy world where i can become a gambler and earn my keep on a mobile sports book app. i am not playing computer games all day long. i am not binge-watching TV. no what i am doing is stepping up my skills with hours of coding training. i am getting out of the house every day and i am still taking care of my physical fitness. in fact, there is a trip to the Rec center in store for me, as soon as i post this baby. does this mean that i am blithely facing my future without concern for paying my way? no i am not, but i am certainly living in a bit of FEAR and am growing tired of people asking about “how i am doing?” the fact is, given my current circumstances, i am doing better than i expect.
right here and right now? well i have a technical interview this afternoon and a new training project to get rolling on, now that i have fixed my remote stash. overall, things are not dire and i am not dwelling in the house of pain. as i sat this morning, i actually went far away and nothing, absolutely nothing bubbled up from the depths. when i got up and started my day, i did feel an attachment to something greater than myself and a certainty that IF i keep paying attention, i may get what i want, as well as what i need. time to slide on over to the Rec Center for a bit of walking in circles or perhaps going nowhere. better than slipping and landing on my ass, in the cold harsh morning that i have been presented with, today.

∞ DT ∞