โฆ i need every bit of experience, โฆ
Posted: Sun, Feb 3, 2013 10:14:00 AM
every different angle on my program i can find to meet the many challenges of living clean. so i am way behind where i wanted or better put planned to be at this time in this morning. i slept in and it felt great, i did some of my normal Sunday stuff, which was a bit more than usual, and i did some stuff to make to morrow morning go a bit quicker, needless to say, the morning is slipping away from me, and i still have to work out before i can hit the showers. oh yeah, one more thing before i get rolling:
i seldom listen to what my body is telling me, and like my car, that can have painful and costly results, so how in the hell am i supposed to listen to what the rest of the world is telling me? one day at a time, one person at a time, on statement or question at at time, is HOW! the reading this morning is spot on, because just yesterday i was dissing another addict in recovery, because they just will not get off their butt and get moving. i get that as well, taking responsibility for how i feel and how i live is a BIG task, and one that feels quite daunting at times. i can spin the circumstances to make myself look like a victim in my own head, but in reality, i am a volunteer for most of my misery. in reality i am running late, because I CHOSE to sleep in, i CHOSE to do a bit of work from tomorrow, and i CHOOSE to get a workout in, all the while, precious seconds are tick, tick, ticking away. i KNOW, that this is just as it is supposed to be, and when i get there, i can see that right here and right now, it is IMPORTANT for me to be present and move forward. i also know that the phone calls i have been getting over the past few days are for me, NOT for the addict on the other end of the line. i NEEDED to talk about their feelings and remember what it felt like to be a newly minted addict in recovery.
today? well i choose recovery and as the day grinds on, i will make my choices to augment my decision. so it is off into the cool mourning for a workout with our little dawg too! it is a good day to remember that i never know where the information i NEED to stay clean will be coming from, so it is up to me to pay attention.
Aaron F
5 years of doing this
one day at a time!
Congrats my friend
and KEEP COMING BACK
i seldom listen to what my body is telling me, and like my car, that can have painful and costly results, so how in the hell am i supposed to listen to what the rest of the world is telling me? one day at a time, one person at a time, on statement or question at at time, is HOW! the reading this morning is spot on, because just yesterday i was dissing another addict in recovery, because they just will not get off their butt and get moving. i get that as well, taking responsibility for how i feel and how i live is a BIG task, and one that feels quite daunting at times. i can spin the circumstances to make myself look like a victim in my own head, but in reality, i am a volunteer for most of my misery. in reality i am running late, because I CHOSE to sleep in, i CHOSE to do a bit of work from tomorrow, and i CHOOSE to get a workout in, all the while, precious seconds are tick, tick, ticking away. i KNOW, that this is just as it is supposed to be, and when i get there, i can see that right here and right now, it is IMPORTANT for me to be present and move forward. i also know that the phone calls i have been getting over the past few days are for me, NOT for the addict on the other end of the line. i NEEDED to talk about their feelings and remember what it felt like to be a newly minted addict in recovery.
today? well i choose recovery and as the day grinds on, i will make my choices to augment my decision. so it is off into the cool mourning for a workout with our little dawg too! it is a good day to remember that i never know where the information i NEED to stay clean will be coming from, so it is up to me to pay attention.
∞ DT ∞