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not mine. if i find myself at odds with everything around me, i will surrender self-will.
ahhhhh, the tale of the wills, and quite a reminder that although things may not be going the way i EXPECT them to be going, i am NOT entitled to expect them to go any other way. i hear it in the rooms, as well as out on the streets with the other 85%. it seems that everyone believes they are ENTITLED to stuff like: happiness, fulfilling jobs, infinite amounts of cash, respect and being able to live their lives in any manner they choose to, regardless of the effect that it has on the world around them. they cut-off people ion traffic, drive whatever speed happens to suit them at that moment, oblivious to the rest of the drivers around them while blithely texting their BFF.
that is certainly me all over, because i know what i see in society and those around me, is what i see in myself and find lacking. it is the mirror reflecting my self-will, and amplifying it to drive home the point, i too, am the self-centered, self-obsessed entitled sh!t, that i see all around me. the difference being, that i GET to see that, and i GET to take the STEPS to allow the corrections to be made. reading such as this allow me to see the core of my addiction and remember where i came from, and certainly where i could be going, and it is not to Disneyland!
so although i could dump a bit more, i am running a bit behind schedule, and although i not required to be at work until 9:00 AM, i like to be there before 8, so i can have some time in the afternoon to chill before moving on. it is a good day to remember that although i view the universe from the very center i am NOT THE center of the universe, i am just another addict, staying clean one day at a time.

∞ DT ∞