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Sat, Jul 23, 2005 08:02:29 AM
δ whose will is it anyway, HMMM? δ
posted: Sat, Jul 23, 2005 08:02:29 AM
that is always an interesting question for me. being the selfish self-centered dishonest horse thief that i am, my natural response is
one of the symptoms i look for was mentioned in the reading this morning -- finding myself at odds with everyone and everything in the world. i find however that i have been living in self-will much sooner than this symptom manifests and for me that is the final warning that i am truly spinning in a direction i do not wish to be going.
some of the more subtle signs for me are a uneasiness in social situations with my friends in recovery, biting sarcasm, dissatisfaction with trivial events and a lack of feeling connected tro the divine. alas, i usually see these symptoms in hindsight but i am getting better being present for what is going on inside me. and progress is the key here, not perfection.
∞ DT ∞
I AM ALWAYS EXERCISING GOD‘'S WILL! CAN‘T YOU SEE THAT FOR YOURSELF!?but today i am trying my best to become more that that person i just described, so i go round and round about if i really am exercising self-will or GOD‘s will.
one of the symptoms i look for was mentioned in the reading this morning -- finding myself at odds with everyone and everything in the world. i find however that i have been living in self-will much sooner than this symptom manifests and for me that is the final warning that i am truly spinning in a direction i do not wish to be going.
some of the more subtle signs for me are a uneasiness in social situations with my friends in recovery, biting sarcasm, dissatisfaction with trivial events and a lack of feeling connected tro the divine. alas, i usually see these symptoms in hindsight but i am getting better being present for what is going on inside me. and progress is the key here, not perfection.
∞ DT ∞
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
1) Not to value and employ men of superior ability is the way to keep
the people from rivalry among themselves; not to prize articles which
are difficult to procure is the way to keep them from becoming thieves;
not to show them what is likely to excite their desires is the way
to keep their minds from disorder.