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do i have to keep coming to these classes? is one of those questions i hear over and over again from those who have been sent to our fellowship from outside agencies. i kind of like thinking about meetings as classes, for each one has at least one lesson during the time i am there. and it comes back to the questions i had when i first started coming around. the truth, for me, was at that time i was only coming around long enough to get rid of the consequences of one event in my life. the last thing i wanted was to start the lifelong process of recovering from the disease of addiction.
well after 2898 days i am still here and still waiting for the day when i will be cured. although i know there is no cure for me, except death, i do know that if i choose to LIVE this program i can relieve my suffering, reduce the effects of my apparent symptoms and be happy with what i have. but that means i need to fit my life to recovery and not fit my recovery to my life. i have heard this so often and parroted it back that i do not even think about what this cliché really means anymore.
i could go into a long spiel about that but i do not have the desire to do so this morning so i will just do the short version -- GO TO MEETINGS, PRAY AND MEDITITATE DAILY, WORK THE STEPS, SHARE HONESTLY WITH OTHER ADDICTS, HAVE AND USE A SPONSOR AND READ THE AVAILABLE LITERATURE. that's it, really quite a simple recipe for moving ahead with my life and staying clean on a daily basis. so how long do i need to keep doing these things -- for as long as i want freedom from active addiction.
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