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yes i truly believed that life without using would be boring and not worth living. yes i also believed that my life as i knew it was over when i finally accepted that i could no longer use. well today i see the reality of both of those beliefs, life i knew it was over, but what i got was far beyond my wildest dreams. my new life is hardly boring and i have developed the resources to go places and see things that were far beyond the means that were at my disposal when using. but most of all what i got was the ability to be more and do more than i ever could before. today i can be wrong and even admit it. today i can work on loving and being loved. today i can dream about concepts and a future without limits. today i can develop relationships and learn how to be active participant in them. and today i can love and accept myself just as i am, unconditionally. i am no longer a slave to my active disease and i can make plans and work towards goals. today i can defer gratification, and work towards having even more spiritual, emotional and material gifts.
what is the cost of this new life? well, for one i cannot use anything just for today. i have to be open-minded enough to listen to and take suggestions. and most of all i have to live the program of recovery that has been given to me to the best of my ability. all of these costs are nothing when compared to the cost of my active addiction and i am willing to pay the price of my new life at least just for today!
∞ DT ∞