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i confide.
okay, finally something new for me, after my run of something new for all of you. for reals, my sponsor is far more than someone in whom i can confide, and i certainly hope the men i sponsor believe the same about me. Derek, congrats on getting engaged last night, i am glad things worked out, just as planned, no curve balls or unexpected twists in the road.
moving into the here and now, our trip to and from our vacation spot was long and tiring and not without its moments of turmoil. we have decided that the old way of doing things, get up and get out, instead of lingering, is the better way to go, as it was after 11 PM, last night when we finally arrived home. sitting here this morning, after adding a week's worth of blogs, i feel a bit empty and a bit let dop0wn. part of it is, of course, i do not here the surf crashing and feel those tropical breezes bringing thew salt air into my room. part of it is, that after so many days off the grid and in a place where i had no responsibilities, nor work to do, all of a sudden i need to to start easing back in to the real world, including walking out to the mailbox and getting all the mail that is crammed into it. returning into the swing of things, after going through all my e-mail and looking at my desk, at least in a virtual sense, i can see that in my absence, nothing has changed. my Dad has yet to access his e-mail online, my brother has yet to get his either and all i can do is watch as they bury their heads deeper and deeper into the sand., the reality is, well i need not remind them of what the reality is, what i need to do, is get into the shower and hose off the layer of grunge i accumulated over the past twenty-four. what i need to do, i breathe and relax, as i still have another day to look at the world around me, before i have to fully rejoin it.
so i think i will leave at that for today and head intop a day of doing nothing at home, or at least that be my plan, we will see what happens.

∞ DT ∞