Some memes

one of which is the love and grace i have been given from GOD since starting down the path of recovery. the literature of the program that saved my life tells me, "that we can only keep what we have by giving it away." and the paradoxical nature of that statement has always bugged me.
part of my problem with this comes from my experience in active addiction, the more i gave, the less i seemed to get, and of course, i always wanted more not less! even when i was struggling to get clean, it seemed that the more i took, the more i had, love, acceptance, material wealth and respect. the only thing i could not get was clean -- no matter how hard i tried. so i faked it, waiting for something, anything different to happen. well GOD loved me enough to put the final event into my life, that allowed me to discover the desperation i needed to begin to open my mind to a new way of life.
so when confronted by the apparent paradoxical nature of keeping GOD‘s love by giving it away today, i look at the evidence that has accumulated since that september day not too long ago and see that it is true. i can only keep what i have by giving it away! and for my own selfish motives i think i will give some more away today!
∞ DT ∞