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takes practice and is a process that starts with surrendering to the fact that this is something i cannot change. surrender, at least for me, leads to tolerance, through which the path to acceptance must pass. even with all of that build-up, acceptance does not come easily for me, as i see myself as a fighter, which has caused a myriad of issues in my life, even after a minute clean. more than once, i have held on to belief or an opinion so tightly, that i ended up in more than one untenable situation. this morning, as i deal with someone who is certain he got screwed over in our Fantasy Football waiver wire last night, i have to accept that no matter how much he says he accepts the fact he did not get his player, he really does not. what i need to do this morning, is accept that i will never understand the ins and outs of how that process really works and move along towards getting out of the house for a workout.
something that has always stuck with me is the line in the literature that says that people not all skilled people were born with their skill and that to become skilled at something one needs to practice. as tough as it is for me to do, practicing acceptance is something i have to work on, on a minute by minute basis, every single day. the proof that work is paying off can be seen in my daily life, as i fight less and less against the stuff i cannot change, become a bit more forgiving and tolerant of others, and accept that the world is not set-up to be exactly as i desire. the fact of the matter is that very little in this world is exactly as i would like to see it. i have to go back to the serenity prayer and seek wisdom to know what i need to accept and continue the battle to change what i can.. today, i can change my physical health by doing the exercises that my physical therapist suggested and riding the stationary bike at the rec center. neither of those activities are on the top of my “want to do” list but both of them will further my goal of being ready to hike again by January. so time to,a s the old commercial once said, make the doughnuts. 😁

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