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Mon, Nov 1, 2004 04:42:04 AM
giving away love
posted: Mon, Nov 1, 2004 04:42:04 AM
two days without writing and no good excuse. the truth is i have been blocked from my feelings since thursday and have been unable to really meditate or find any connection to anything beyond myself. i have been very careful to not act-out by going out and buying something ,withdrawing from the love of those around me or isolating and pushing everyone away.
this morning i finally started to feel the block lift and was able to feel a connection of sorts. i actually feel GOD's love for me today so the reading was more than appropriate for what i am currently going through.
i do not know whether the block i have is the result of GOD's care for me or my disease preventing me from feeling what i need to, i do know that i feel it lifting and will be present for whatever comes as the emotions i have been "not feeling" come back.
i also know that the love and strength i have received since coming to the program is the result of working and living the steps. today i want to share what i am once again starting to feel and let GOD work through me.
-- DT --
this morning i finally started to feel the block lift and was able to feel a connection of sorts. i actually feel GOD's love for me today so the reading was more than appropriate for what i am currently going through.
i do not know whether the block i have is the result of GOD's care for me or my disease preventing me from feeling what i need to, i do know that i feel it lifting and will be present for whatever comes as the emotions i have been "not feeling" come back.
i also know that the love and strength i have received since coming to the program is the result of working and living the steps. today i want to share what i am once again starting to feel and let GOD work through me.
-- DT --
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
1) The Tao is (like) the emptiness of a vessel; and in our employment
of it we must be on our guard against all fulness. How deep and unfathomable
it is, as if it were the Honoured Ancestor of all things!