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guidelines are that this POWER be loving, caring, and greater than myself. once again, i NEED to jump through some hoops, to make myself fit, or do i? what if, and i know this may sound crazy, i just walk away from the notion that guidelines are mandatory, and take the term suggested at face value? instead of forcing myself to play semantic games and hedge what this poor that may or may not mean to me, i just acknowledge the suggestion is there and move along, into the mainstream of my fellowship. it is not that i lack belief, no siree bob, it is that i lack belief in defining that POWER with human attributes and characteristics. now i understand that issue a sponsee had many moons ago, when i asked him, point blank, to tell me what attributes his vision of a HIGHER POWER did or did not have. he had a different take on the question, as he was relying on “common knowledge” and i should just know, by his spiritual path, what those attributes were. it is however, now that i ponder the question, than my dilemma these days. my lack of desire to define and confine a POWER greater than myself, by my puny human ideals, has been a long time coming. even a year ago, stretched the definition far enough, just so i could fit in. well, at least in this instance, stretching, bending and playing with words, is no longer part of how i want to operate. i am okay, just being who i am and what has come to pass is, i have FAITH in a POWER greater than myself, that defies explanation or definition. more importantly, i can be okay with that concept and share about freely, within the confines of the language that fills my fellowship with HOPE.
moving along in the middle of this football weekend, where i am tethered to a 10 minute response time chain, there are a few issues that have been on my mind lately, that are bouncing all around the news-sphere that is modern media. the latest antics, gaffes and lies coming from the White House, are becoming more incredibly ludicrous on a daily basis. for some reason, less and less of the the those that voted to for the current occupant, are finding that the tag of “fake news,” is less convincing. it seems more politicians trying to use the term, are falling into traps where their recorded words are being used against them, unedited and in context, unlike some of the darlings of the alt-right that use creative editing and entrapment, to try and discredit those who disagree with them. the fact is, all of sudden, as the whole “fake news” paradigm is coming back to bite them, i am noticing more and more legal threats and blustering, and a certain whine about libel laws being to tough to take down those who choose to report the unflattering truth about those in power. although i have FAITH, that the system will survive this surge of the haters and those who fear the true nature of democratic institution as a threat to their long-standing power and influence, it is still disturbing to watch their continual self-destruction based on a world view that is a fantasy. that world view? that they speak for most of the citizens who make this country what it is today. they tapped into an angst in the last election cycle and have run with it, as if they had a mandate, and maybe they do. this next election cycle should provide those answers and i am not all that certain what those answers may or may not be. what it comes down to is FAITH in my fellow citizens to admit they were hoodwinked by a vulgar and vile con man and left to wither on the vine, when the promises that were made, could never become any sort of reality.
time for some football and to walk away from all the confusion and angst i have stirred up inside. i do have FAITH that the POWER that fuels my recovery will give the opportunity, to get everything i need today, to thrive and will run with that notion in my head.

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