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my life, by letting go of the resentments that weigh me down. okay, there are two things that top my list of stuff i really, really hate. the first being Daylight Savings Time. i hate **springing forward** and see no real purpose in it. as the season progresses it means i have to run my AC longer in the evening to keep my house comfortable. it also means that for the next week or so, my body has to adjust to the artificial diurnal cycle foisted upon me by multi-national corporations and their lobbyists. i could and was going to go on and on about why i hate this little bit of time-shifting, but to what end? yeah, it might make me feel better to vent, but do i have any power over it? acceptance is the key to my serenity, this morning and now that i have stated what i think, time to move on.
popping that off my list, the next one is this whole label of “fake news” and the “right to be forgotten.” there really is “fake news” and some things need to be allowed to be “forgotten.” the overuse of these concepts by those in the public eye to eliminate truthful reporting, however, really ticks me off. more and more, those in public eye, seem to think that screaming about how fake some stories are, or appealing to courts to have the evidence of their past bad deeds removed from the public view, seems to play more into my shortcoming of looking better than i really am. what i see in them, is what i see in myself. Stormy Daniels? well that news is not quiet as “fake” as it might have once seemed and the fact that some very religious people believe that their guy can sh!t all over their moral tenants and still be a worthy person, is totally beyond my comprehension. be that as it may, now that those two little bothersome pet peeves are off my list, i do feel a bit burdened.
coming around to what i am heard this morning, as i sat, i realized that my judgement machine, is actually a tool i use against myself and really does not affect those who i judge one iota. sure, if i did as i once did, spread my less than savory judgements around, i would be doing freaking TENTH STEP admissions of wrong 24-7. these days i find a better way to win friends and influence people is to correct my behavior and offer up an alternative to how others behave. when a peer, shares about how “wonderful” recovery has made their life, i can share about how things are far from perfect in mine. when a peer shares about how wonderful they feel because of their service efforts, i can share that keeping my service efforts on the down-low, at least in a meeting, helps me to be humble. when a peer shares clichés and bumper stickers strung together, i can share what is in my heart and soul, in my own words. the list goes on and on, and what i am getting a sense of this morning, is that each and every time i judge, it is not them that i am really judging, and condemning, it is me, and i get to carry that weight until i decide to let it go. it is those judgement that build the resentments and most of the time, it is me, who bares the burden. today, well today, i will do my best to stop drinking that poison and hope that someone else suffers the consequences.

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