๐ณ recognizing my own ๐ต
Posted: Tue, Mar 11, 2025 07:19:25 AM
humanness gives me the capacity to forgive others. in the past, and not even that long ago, i found coming to a place of forgiving someone else, was one of the hardest journeys i had to make. letting go of what was done to me and looking at what i did to others, is still not something i do instantaneously.the freedom i have found after releasing my anger at my Mom, has given me a path and some hope that i can find a similar release from the burden of the resentments and simmering anger i am still carrying around.
this morning as i am coffee free and hungry, due to a procedure i am going to have in a few hours, my mind is not very focused and i do think it will get any better as this day rolls on. i am certainly a work in progress and one that is finally coming to believe that there is light at the end of the tunnel of the insanity i have been living in for the past few years. i actually got over my bad self and gave my employer a decent day of work, yesterday, even though i felt like slacking off again. i am not sure what is going on with me these days, but work is not something i have the desire to do. i do know that if i want to keep what i have, i need to to do what is required of me. which i am beginning to see is to do the writing i have been assigned, now that i have done the reading. not a task for today, as i will be in an altered state and not connected spiritually, after my procedure. what i can do, right here and right now is get the dog out for a walk and be okay knowing that what i am doing is just for me, even though being healthy does affect the people in my life who depend upon me.
this morning as i am coffee free and hungry, due to a procedure i am going to have in a few hours, my mind is not very focused and i do think it will get any better as this day rolls on. i am certainly a work in progress and one that is finally coming to believe that there is light at the end of the tunnel of the insanity i have been living in for the past few years. i actually got over my bad self and gave my employer a decent day of work, yesterday, even though i felt like slacking off again. i am not sure what is going on with me these days, but work is not something i have the desire to do. i do know that if i want to keep what i have, i need to to do what is required of me. which i am beginning to see is to do the writing i have been assigned, now that i have done the reading. not a task for today, as i will be in an altered state and not connected spiritually, after my procedure. what i can do, right here and right now is get the dog out for a walk and be okay knowing that what i am doing is just for me, even though being healthy does affect the people in my life who depend upon me.
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