α carry the weight? why not get rid of it! α
Posted: Sat, Mar 11, 2006 03:15:07 PM
okay so it is not even close to morning anymore. so i cannot say that here i sit pondering the meaning of life the universe and everything while the coffee takes effect, no way i have been working and doing service.
but all of that is irrelevant right now, what the reading this morning seemed to be talking about is the weight of resentments on my spirit. i understand that all resentments no matter how trivial or justified are burdens that i carry through my day to day life. but sometimes i find the addict in me just wants to hold on to them a little bit longer. and a little bit longer is a very relative term. for me, that can mean twenty minutes or twenty months, and neither is really a viable alternative. just because i am not formally working a fourth step (which i am actually doing at this time) does not mean that i cannot let me resentments go! the process is quite simple -- write them out, talk with a trusted friend about them, see my part in the resentment and give them over to my HIGHER POWER. simple n'est-ce pas? but of course it is not very easy! life is full of opportunities for me to form and carry a resentment, my job is to see them for what they are, a burden and drop them along the path as quickly as possible. and you know what, perhaps i will be able to do that today!
but all of that is irrelevant right now, what the reading this morning seemed to be talking about is the weight of resentments on my spirit. i understand that all resentments no matter how trivial or justified are burdens that i carry through my day to day life. but sometimes i find the addict in me just wants to hold on to them a little bit longer. and a little bit longer is a very relative term. for me, that can mean twenty minutes or twenty months, and neither is really a viable alternative. just because i am not formally working a fourth step (which i am actually doing at this time) does not mean that i cannot let me resentments go! the process is quite simple -- write them out, talk with a trusted friend about them, see my part in the resentment and give them over to my HIGHER POWER. simple n'est-ce pas? but of course it is not very easy! life is full of opportunities for me to form and carry a resentment, my job is to see them for what they are, a burden and drop them along the path as quickly as possible. and you know what, perhaps i will be able to do that today!
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