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in this moment, i am free. the irony was a year ago, i still thought i had some recourse against the scammers that i willingly gave my money too. today, i see how delusional i was and where self-willed denial took me. am i happy, joyous and free when i consider all of that? NOT BY A LONG SHOT! what i am today, however is a bit wiser, a but more cautious when someone calls offering something “too good to be true,” and more accepting of who and what i was a year ago. a year ago i was always angry at one of my peers with whom i spent time. over the course of the last twelve months i have come to see that it was my expectations that were out of line, not necessarily their behavior. well maybe their behavior needed to be checked, but that is not my job. my job is to remove those sort of people from my life, BY CHOICE and not let them keep me from what i enjoy doing. once i saw where my power was and stopped giving it away to them, i found a still place inside when i interact with them on any level.
today, i have choices and i often forget that fact. i chose to be an idiot last year. i chose to give away my personal power and i CHOOSE today, to do something different. life in my skin is not all that bad. true, i could be richer, younger and better looking, but why fret and worry about that, as i no longer choose to live in a fantasy world, except when it comes to football! my reality today is that the life i have, whether i built it, it was the result of living a program or is “GOD given,” is pretty sweet today. oops there goes a daisy 🌼 😇
with that little faux pas in mind, i think i will slip off to get my new running shoes and disappear into the wonderful world of football, just for today.

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