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of least resistance, for this addict anyhow, will lead to a life of slothful, chemical bliss. i know, sounds a bit hysterical and possibly more than a bit of hyperbole, but when i consider my history, i know wherefore whence i came. this morning, after a quick workout and an early start on this day, i GET to head down south to see my sponse. of course, i might have rushed through my step work to have something to share with him, but in the end, i decided i just need to get out of town and spend time with him, just to catch-up.
after a minute to pause and consider what ideas i need to take forward into the morning.

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TJ
Congrats on 1 Decade (10 years clean)!
Thanks for proving the lie, is just that, a lie, we do recover!

as i was writing this, this morning, i had a bit of a block and was not sure where this was going. i do not have any clue what i “heard” this morning, but i do know what new ideas that i have to look at now. after road-tripping down to spend some time with the man i call my sponsor, my mind is open to all sorts of possibilities. of course as a result, i got an assignment, which i am actually more than willing to implement.
before i left the house i was asked by Kathy, to drive safely, sanely and not to speed. of course i agreed, one knows the drill, happy wife, happy life. as i was driving though, i made a conscious choice to stay in the right hand lane as much as possible and to flow with the speed of traffic in that lane. Colorado, being Colorado, in places the right hand lane was moving faster than those to the left, but all in all, i lived up to an agreement, i had no intention of honoring that agreement and i was going to justify my lack of honesty by i “had” to get somewhere and had to be the first to do so. when i let go of my “need for speed” i realized how much more calm i was and certainly more forgiving and less judgemental about those with whom i shared the highway. i may not have been any sort of saint, but i certainly was a whole lot more saint-like and perhaps this may be an attitude i want to adopt, the next time i make a road trip. or maybe not! 😉
the other new idea that has been planted in my brain, is that maybe, i am exactly where i need to be. with all the angst over COVID, social justice and the lies of election fraud, i am still here, i am still clean and i can make a journey of more than one thousand steps to seek the guidance i need to seek, to get my stuff out into the open and move on to the next version of what i am evolving into, just for today.

∞ DT ∞