π running from life π
Posted: Mon, Jul 4, 2022 01:24:03 AM
is no longer part of my daily plan. although this morning, i am nowhere close to living life responsibly, as i am on vacation. too bad i cannot take a vacation from a spiritual principle or two. 😜 as i sit in Keflavik airport, waiting for the next leg of my European vacation, i realize that patience, no matter how difficult it may be for me, may just need too be my watchword today, as i am more than a bit over-tired and one of my traveling companions is very good att working my last nerve. i could quite easily jump down their throat and rip their heart out and feed it back to them. quite an image and certainly an overreaction to what and who they are. a bit more coffee as the food hits bottom, will probably help me return to being a semi-decent human being. one thing is for certain is that i did not sleep well under the influence of “white nights.”
as i sat on listened on the bus to the airport this morning, what kept popping off the stack was the notion of how i was going to deal with someone who just does not listen and seems to think that the old rules still apply. i am at the point of cutting them off on social media, because apparantly posting a stupid gif on what i post, is supposed to make me jump with joy that i got their attention and approval. in the old days i would have been creaming my jeans over that reaction, today i just think it is sad, as approval and attention is may be nice, but no longer is required to prove my worth, to myself or anyone else. in fact, it ticks me off, esepcially when no matter how i behave, no matter what i say, they continue to attempt to play by the old and ancient rules. the good part is i have two weeks until i have to interact with them again and i have plenty of adventures to distract me from this particular battle of wills.
it is a good day to be clean and on my way to Dublin, sooner or later. i am not at war with myself or anyone else this morning and i am ready to get up and walk some steps as i wait for our plane to finally get here to board.
as i sat on listened on the bus to the airport this morning, what kept popping off the stack was the notion of how i was going to deal with someone who just does not listen and seems to think that the old rules still apply. i am at the point of cutting them off on social media, because apparantly posting a stupid gif on what i post, is supposed to make me jump with joy that i got their attention and approval. in the old days i would have been creaming my jeans over that reaction, today i just think it is sad, as approval and attention is may be nice, but no longer is required to prove my worth, to myself or anyone else. in fact, it ticks me off, esepcially when no matter how i behave, no matter what i say, they continue to attempt to play by the old and ancient rules. the good part is i have two weeks until i have to interact with them again and i have plenty of adventures to distract me from this particular battle of wills.
it is a good day to be clean and on my way to Dublin, sooner or later. i am not at war with myself or anyone else this morning and i am ready to get up and walk some steps as i wait for our plane to finally get here to board.
∞ DT ∞