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Posted: Fri, Jul 15, 2022 09:16:36 AM
to remember that i am not the center of the world, especially on days like today, when i am transiting between vacation spots and home. i was doing pretty darn good until we got to our layover in Iceland and then i took off like a bat out of hell to use the rest room and get something to eat, leaving my spouse to guard the luggage by herself and not asking if i could fetch her anything. at least i am keeping my mouth shut and not making things worse. we still have one more boarding, a long haul flight and border control left to go through, so there are planty of opportunities to dig myself a deeper hole. i could mount a decent defense to rationalize my lack of concern, but i am a bit better than that, today anyhow.
the good news is, i do NOT have to go there, i CAN watch what i do and do the next right thing, so i do not have to go back and own any more wrongs today. as i consider how this day started out, which was me getting frustrated by the same party that has been working my last nerve all week long, i am glad i had a friend and peer in recovery to vent to via text, as he is in Europe as well. sitting here trying to figure out where to get the “good” coffee at, i can leet go, allow everyone to be themselves and when they are ready…
i am glad the next time i pound this little ditty out, i will be a mile high, in the middle of USA and waking up from sleeping in my own bed. i still have a quick trip to the store to make this evening, after we arrive home, as i neeed milk for breakfast, but planning plans when i am in Iceland, is probably not the most wise thing to do. today i am doing my best to makkee a few better choices.
the good news is, i do NOT have to go there, i CAN watch what i do and do the next right thing, so i do not have to go back and own any more wrongs today. as i consider how this day started out, which was me getting frustrated by the same party that has been working my last nerve all week long, i am glad i had a friend and peer in recovery to vent to via text, as he is in Europe as well. sitting here trying to figure out where to get the “good” coffee at, i can leet go, allow everyone to be themselves and when they are ready…
i am glad the next time i pound this little ditty out, i will be a mile high, in the middle of USA and waking up from sleeping in my own bed. i still have a quick trip to the store to make this evening, after we arrive home, as i neeed milk for breakfast, but planning plans when i am in Iceland, is probably not the most wise thing to do. today i am doing my best to makkee a few better choices.
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