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the quality of my relations with them determines, to a great extent, the quality of my life.
and today quality in my life is something that i treasure and want to nurture. although the reading speaks to the eighth step specifically, i get a whole lot more out of it, in a slightly different direction. the path the reading draws me down is more of a tenth step sort of thing. the problem that i have is that i still struggle with self-centeredness and acting as if the only thing that is important are my needs and wants. as a result, i often have to go back and make amends to repair the damage that i have one in the course of my daily life. BUMMER DUDE!
of course i could play ostrich and put off repairing any damage until the next time i cycle through to the eighth step. the problem with that is i will probably have hardly any of those relationships left by that time and the quality of my life will certainly be less than acceptable to me. so it goes... exactly what is the addict to do? well for one thing, i can start to recognize the attitudes and behaviors that lead me into acting-out in a self-centered manner. i can surrender those attitudes and behaviors to GOD, and allow the process to work in my life. yes i am human and will always struggle with selfish self-centeredness, but i have the means to allow that to be removed from my life today, and maybe a bit of seventh step surrender will help!

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